Weight Loss for the Week: .5lbs
What a week. I walked 19 miles total this week. I haven't done that in a long time. I'm glad I'm getting back into that kind of routine. I find walking helps me think through different issues/concerns/ideas and I feel like I gain a lot of clarity from it. So, I definitely like that I am making myself wake up early to go for walks, and that I'm going on walks again in the afternoons- no more excuses, right?
I did pretty well with my meals until the weekend hit. I had a fundraiser Friday night, Girl's Night last night, and brunch this morning. O.M.G., so much good food, my stomach is incredibly mad at me now though. I still stayed within all my points, especially since I earned a ton of activity points this week, but I keep thinking I would've lost more if I hadn't splurged so much. Moderation is the key, must keep reminding myself of that fact.
Tutoring was fairly normal this week- i.e. I only helped maybe 4-5 students. I have had my courses confirmed for SBA which meant I spent a lot of time at the tutoring center looking for activities and online resources :) I will be teaching two sections of British Literature in their PLUS Program (for students with LDs) and four sections of Sophomore Theology (New Testament and Christian Morality). I'm pretty excited for these and can't wait to get my materials and all to truly start planning everything. I also get to go get some training for my MacBook which will be good- plus, I hope to meet some more of the teachers over there when I do. Maybe I'll start remembering names?
I really appreciate all the feedback I got from my Wednesday post. It was a really hard post to finally write, and it made me almost sick to my stomach worrying what people would think when they read it. Nevertheless, it had to be said, I had to say it. And I love how much support, understanding, and love I have gotten from friends and family members who have read that post. I appreciate all the comments and messages from everyone. I also really like that it has started some good dialogue between myself and others about the subject.
It kills me to hear what other people have gone through due their own insecurities and issues. It kills me that so many people don't feel like they can or should talk about it. It kills me that I felt like that for so long. We have to be able to talk about those kind of issues. I'm afraid of what can happen if we don't. I had so many friends this week tell me issues they knew about with my exes, but they didn't know how to say anything at the time- or they felt like they couldn't say anything and have me be responsive. Maybe they were right, maybe when I was that low, I wouldn't have listened to what they wanted to say. Who knows. From now on, I sincerely hope that changes.
The other repeated conversation I have had is about how everyone wants to make it clear that they never thought I deserved to be treated badly. I know no one would ever think that or make me feel like that. I thought that. I don't know what factors specifically contributed to my belief that I deserved to be treated like that, but I don't blame any of my family or friends for it. It does my soul good to let these feelings out, I'm glad that I can use this space for such things :)
Okay, now to figure out what's happening regarding birthday celebrations the next few weeks.
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