June 24, 2012- I Ain't Sayin' You Treated Me Unkind, You Could've Done Better, But I Don't Mind

Weight Loss for the Week: 0lbs

This week I upped my activity by walking every single day.  I was more active with the kids at work too.  I also didn't drink any soda during the week- primarily just water.

But my eating habits and food choices were, well, shitty this week.  My schedule was a bit thrown due to teachers being out and covering breaks instead of taking my own most days.  And while I loved getting off early, it meant eating next to nothing for lunch and ending up with a ton of points for the evening.  And then, I gorged most days because I would be starving and ended up eating more than I should have for the end of the day.  I also drank a few different nights this week which never helps with weight loss.  And yesterday was pretty much a gorge fest for breakfast and dinner.  Granted I didn't eat as much as I know I would have before starting Weight Watchers, I still ate more than I know I should have.

Like I said, it's all a process and it's also not terribly surprising that I just maintained the week after I lost 4lbs.  I am going to pre-plan better this week by making my lunches and dinners for the week this afternoon/evening.  I've already got a bunch of fruit cut up for breakfast and snacks so that I have healthier options for myself this week.

I'm starting to try to handle the break up more than I was last week when I was just in shock and crying a bunch.  I'm hoping that helps with me not wanting to eat so much junk and sweets, etc.  I still get sad and cry a little each day.  I still miss him.  I still get angry and confused and wonder how the hell it all really happened.  But I'm also coming to terms with the fact that it just wasn't meant to be.  It's not something I did or didn't do; it's not something he did or didn't do.  It's that we tried and we didn't work and it was time to let it all go. And while I still won't magically be over it all just yet, I know I'm doing better to even realize these facts and to start processing everything instead of remaining numb or to keep wondering "What if?"

Now to see what the day and the week have in store for me :)