Yes, it's true. I've gained a few pounds the past few weeks. I haven't made it to the gym a lot in the past couple of weeks. I've eaten out a lot more. And I've had more to drink than I normally do. And it's taken its toll. It feels gross, sad, disappointing. I hate it. It makes me feel like a failure... completely worthless. But that's because I have too much invested in my own body image. It's not the be all end all of who I am, but sometimes I can't get past that being the main thing by which I feel judged. I mean, I love that people know about my struggle and are supportive, but it feels like I'm not just failing myself with something like this, but I'm failing everyone. It's depressing. I'm going all hardcore on tracking and planning workouts for this week in response to how much I hate this feeling.
Okay, onto stuff that doesn't make me feel so shitty. I know I haven't updated the past few weeks- sorry, it's been crazy, good, but crazy for me lately. The first quarter is now done with school, and it ended well enough. I got to house sit for Karen, and then for Jan which was nice. The dogs are all too adorable and loving. It was nice to get to spend time with all of them :) We had a nice Mass, dinner, and bowling night with CYA- yes, I did keep my title of "Queen of the Gutter Balls", never fear. Then, I went to Colorado last Sunday because my Dad and Diane gave me their old Lexus. I love my new car! It's such a nice car. I am so fortunate to get it.
I also got some other fun stuff from them, and from my Aunt Gina when I stayed the night with her on my travels back home. Most things have found a spot in my apartment, but I am still working on making sure everything has its own place. Now, the second quarter has begun, and I think it's going well so far. I can't believe it's almost Halloween. I've gone to two pumpkin patches, and I will go to one more with Sean since we're going to carve pumpkins this week :) We would have last week, but he ended up helping me unpack and organize instead- he's rather amazing like that. Then, we celebrated nine months together by getting some hibachi at A-Tan's. It was very tasty and fun! We had our monthly CYA dinner this past Friday- it was a lot of fun! Yesterday, I finally caught up on my sleep, and last night, I went out with Kerry to celebrate her birthday. Today, after Mass, I continued cleaning and organizing before going to Book Club at Katey's house. Tonight, I went to a birthday dinner for Kerry- so much fun!
Now, I'm just making sure that I am ready for the week ahead :)
Pictures of the Week: Dog sitting, CYA Bowling, CO trip, Pumpkin Patch, Hibachi Dinner
Tip of the Week: Don't let setbacks make you give up on your goals.
Recipe of the Week: Chicken Gumbo Recipe
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